Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Becoming a Mom

It's crazy to think that in about a month my life will be forever changed. I will be a mommy, I will have a daughter and Clarke will be a dad. It's something I've always wanted and it's really happening.

When I found out I was pregnant it was so surreal. I couldn't believe how blessed I was that I got pregnant so easily. The first trimester was rough though. I never really blogged about how hard it was being sick, wrapping my mind around becoming a mother and oh yeah the spotting. That was just awful, not knowing why I had spotting which is why I really stopped running so early in my pregnancy. Oviously everything turned out to be fine. Then the second trimester came, the glorious second trimester. It was as if a magical button went off and I wasn't nauseous or exhausted or sore anymore. So here I am almost at the end of the last trimester and I must say it's not as bad as the first one. Nothing could be as bad as the first trimester. Yes I'm uncomfortable and my back hurts but I'm used to being pregnant. I've adjusted to being pregnant.

And soon I'll have to adjust to being a mom. I know at first it will be hard, like the pregnancy, but then it will be second nature. I guess I am trying to remind myself that I can do this. There are so many unknowns, especially when it comes to actually giving birth.

But somehow I got through this pregnancy, well almost done. I honestly am just praying that God would guide me and be with me through it all. My faith is what calms me when I start to panic about the nursery not being done yet or installing the carseat or how I am going to breastfeed. The unknowns. I remind myself that God knows. His plan for my life so far has been pretty amazing, and I know being a mom will be too.


Melissa said...

The first trimester sucks the most, hands down. I did not miss vomiting and feeling like crap all the time when that all finally went away at 18 weeks.

You will do great! I won't lie, it is absolutely hard at first, especially breastfeeding. No one told me how incredibly demanding and difficult it is, and we had no latching or supply issues. You will get the hang of it though. I can't say I miss it, but I'm glad we did it for 12.5 months and I started to like it after a few months once everything calmed down. Giving birth isn't terribly fun, but epidurals are awesome, and the recovery gets better every day. I pushed out an almost 10lb baby and I felt back to normal in about 4 weeks.

I know it's hard, but try not to worry about the nursery. I freaked out about Landon's and an old co-worker told me the baby doesn't care if a picture isn't up, or the stuffed animals aren't arranged right, etc. She's right and I needed to remember that.

The unknowns are so scary, but just kind of go with it and you will do fine. You're going to be such a great mommy! :)

emily @ cabin fervor said...

You're going to do great, because you want to do great. Caring is half the battle.

All babies need at first are a safe place to sleep, some diapers and a whole lot of snuggling. The nursery will change so much over the course of the first few months anyway. Just take things one day at a time!

Try to think of giving birth as something you are DOING through the power that has been given to you by God, not as something that is happening TO you. It does hurt, but the pain is for a purpose. With each contraction, you're that much closer to having your baby with you. It's truly empowering if you think about it that way.

The Nursing Mother's Companion by Kathleen Huggins was the only breastfeeding book I needed, and I couldn't have survived without it. Definitely recommended!